Brian’s test results have begun to show up on our Thoughtful House account page. I haven’t had my phone appointment yet with the doctor for him to interpret the results but having read my fair share of books about biomedical treatment I know he has some markers for bacterial dysbiosis. His yeast is all nutty.
Thing is, as I was waiting for the PDF to come up so I could see the results I was hoping & praying something would be “off” in the results.
That’s right- I wanted something to be wrong. The last thing I wanted was for that page to pop up with everything in the “normal” ranges.
Does that make me a sick person?
I know it doesn’t. I know my train of thought is very similar to most Moms in my situation. I just wanted something to be “off” to prove my gut feeling that something was wrong. I wanted that black-and-white proof to show and say “Look- there is something medical going on underneath these behaviors!”. I wanted something that I could treat. I wanted something else to give me a little bit more hope. Hope that maybe there is something we can fix and we will see some more growth- not that yeast is the easiest thing in the world to treat, but it’s better than just grasping for straws in the dark.
Like I said, it gives me hope. And that’s enough right now.